My second post...

It's been a long while since the first...but I will post my second now....but anyway...

It's late August...long time after all this has been done...there have been a lot of things to absorb...the comfort of it is that I can freely express it here.

First of all, just want to say that Arts Camp for me had the ups and downs of it all: the ups, having and meeting a remarkable OG which suddenly added a new spice of things to my life. I have never met a group of individuals who have brightened my life just by meeting and having fun with them, even though I was not with them for long periods of time. Here's to you, Remus! ; the downs, is such that whatever the guys think of me in the 8th OM basically have no trust in me anymore...they just had the excuse to run campus tour down, in which I think is just outwardly synonymous with bastards. So much for a man who has given his every ounce of sweat, dedication and thinking to all that I have been asked to do...only to get this in return.

Then came rag. The thing for me is that Rag for me has been ongoing for since my last post. We have been working non stop. The day when I started to see freshies come down and dance, do tech, I started to believe in the spirit of rag again. The numbers were not encouraging, and I sent my appeals for assistance...so much for everything...those whom I thought were my friends did not answer...even those who came down, came with a political agenda. I will not say who, but the formation of the incoming MC will tell of the results of that 'realpolitik'. However, against all the odds, Arts rag came out good, I would say now, the best among it all. It was definitely the best float simply because me, Jianwu, Fiona, Keyou and the few of us have dared to take the challenge of building something that was not done since 2000. How about that?

But the one that touched me more...was the float itself...and the presentation on rag day...I was just overcome by the performance of our dancers...freshies I saw them, some seniors who joined too...but raggers at the end of it all...

We are Raggerfied!

If that was not all, then came the stuff for MC...I came back to the place...suddenly I do not feel at home anymore...I was thinking very deeply whether I should join the 26th MC...but I got a call...

One call that decidedly swung my decision even against the advice of one of the seniors whom I respected the most in regards about MC life and running...this friend of mine called me...and offered me a damn good proposition. Something I cannot refuse. I just cannot refuse a trip to Harvard to debate with some of the world's best undergrads. I just cannot miss that. It was then that I realised that I missed out on something big. Something, that both Jianwu and Fiona told me.

I needed to do something that I like, and I will never ever regret doing.

That was it. It was done...I suppose whoever reads this blog with interest about me not running for the MC, all I can say is that I have been used as a weapon instead of assessing my true capabilities...I wished and I know that given my capability that I can go for something more...but those people in the MC that I thought understood me well enough, were simply, which I think, too political.

As a PS major I know that playing too much politics kills...Just look at the Philippines for the best example.

Right now, I am sitting here...and I am starting to enjoy things now...now I can disengage myself from what I think I should let go...

someone said this..."ren2 yao4 na2 de4 qi3, ye3 yao4 dong3 de2 fang4 de4 xia4"...meaning one should know when to take up...and when to let go...

I only have ROP camp to go...so I think it's about time...still...I will not forget Arts Club...but more importantly...I can now embrace what I know is precious...and reclaim what I have lost...

I am truly free...

P.S. I will be back for my 3rd blog....