I just came out of a meeting with my friends who are going down to Boston in a few weeks time. And I came out of it feeling frustrated, esasperated and feeling very out of place.
It just came as a friend of mine was saying something that was not going right with marketing...I cannot fathom why this happened, but it is also with merit as some of us have not been fully committed and responsible. Just that I have a feeling that her meeting with the Deanery pissed her off big time. Still, I think if she put things in perspective, she should have changed her tone in telling us of the gravity of the situation. Not that I want to spoil things, but the way she delivered her lecture to all of us is definitely not only going to damper the mood for the trip and conference, but also going to sour relations among all of us.
Makes me think whether she trusted anyone else other than her close confidants...I just don't want to have that thought. But the more I think about it, the more it may make sense. I have been wanting to give people the benefit of the doubt, because we all have flaws. I also have flaws, some big and some small, but I definitely know how to control the situation and put things into perspective. At least I don't guys a sermon, I only deliver hard facts. I understand her frustration because we have not been gettin the funds that we need for this trip, but that's just not the way to tell us. From the way she spoke, she made of herself as the angel and the rest of us as devils, and that's what really pissed me off big time. No kidding.
This comes on the back of frustrating personal problems I am expriencing...my parents having a big spat, me having a bad tooth (suspected). starting to lose my way in my tutorials, having less sleep, and now dealing with more society stuff and etc. The problem is that while I am revelling in my role as mentor to my juniors who have to carry heavy responsibility for some of them, I often ask myself every night before I sleep: who do I turn to when I have frustrations?
It's because of my work ethic and study expectations that leave me with little choice but to push ahead...but who can I really talk to about this?
I guess that's why I have this blog.
Some other joyful matters...Rag 2006 has formaly started, but missed the meeting of the techies, in any case it was inevitable because of the heavier priority of settling admin matters for Boston, but I am still keeping myself in touch nonetheless.
SMUN 2006 venue is confirmed: EH! At least managed to relieve my PD's burden...now the problem is how to go about it, but will be meeting her and her deputy ( that makes it 2 nice girls...thank the lords :) ) soon enough to work on the implementation.
My portfolio is getting ok now, now coming to terms with it. Will be submitting some statemensts later today, and try to sort out some stuff at the same time.
And lastly, Happy Doggie Year to the Following:
- All my friends who know of my blog (that's only limited to the special 5...as my dear friends, happy ner year to all!)
- To the one person who has managed to find my blog even though I have not told anyone about it...
- Family of course, that including my sis-in-law
- Remus 2005!
- PS Society
- Rag 2006 com
- 25th MC
That's all....woof to Chinese New Year!
P.S. To the one man who found my blog...do me a favour...don't inform others of this blog of mine. Because I am only restricting it to people who know my character well to understand my frustrations...and Happy New Year to you!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Module Reflection
In reflection to the modules that I have bidded and am taking thus far into the first half of 2006:
- SFP, FPD and Chinese Politics: I think they are the best modules that I think I can do well in, so that means all out for me for all of them. Looking to do well in all three of them.
- Struggle for Modern China: Basically I am taking this to suit with Chinese Politics, so let's hope it turns out that way. Even if it doesn't, I will have to do well in any case.
- Calculus: Some have said that I am an oddball by taking it. But it seems that I have given myself a personal challenge to not just survive, but also to do well in it. Well, whether I can do well in it is one, and whether I decide to use my 2nd S/U option is another. It is hard of course, but regarding this I am taking it one step at a time. So let's see how it goes then...good luck to me.
For all other stuff, that including Boston, society stuff and personal preparations for the year of the dog, take it a step at a time then...not forgetting the resolutions that I have set for myself.
The only new thing is that I have come back to Arts club for only one project: Rag 2006. And may Rag 2006 be the best of the Rags that I have experienced. The good thing is that I am experiencing an optimistic feel about it...so...hmm....
Be Raggerfied 2006!
- SFP, FPD and Chinese Politics: I think they are the best modules that I think I can do well in, so that means all out for me for all of them. Looking to do well in all three of them.
- Struggle for Modern China: Basically I am taking this to suit with Chinese Politics, so let's hope it turns out that way. Even if it doesn't, I will have to do well in any case.
- Calculus: Some have said that I am an oddball by taking it. But it seems that I have given myself a personal challenge to not just survive, but also to do well in it. Well, whether I can do well in it is one, and whether I decide to use my 2nd S/U option is another. It is hard of course, but regarding this I am taking it one step at a time. So let's see how it goes then...good luck to me.
For all other stuff, that including Boston, society stuff and personal preparations for the year of the dog, take it a step at a time then...not forgetting the resolutions that I have set for myself.
The only new thing is that I have come back to Arts club for only one project: Rag 2006. And may Rag 2006 be the best of the Rags that I have experienced. The good thing is that I am experiencing an optimistic feel about it...so...hmm....
Be Raggerfied 2006!
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
A new year, new things...but some things are better relived
2006 has arrived...happy belated new year everybody!
I have set out my resolutions just before the clock struck, so I hope that they still fit as my targets for this year. Oops, I think I am starting to have childish thoughts again, but the idea is that I am reliving the old days...
Indeed, coming to a certain stage like I am experiencing now, it's always good to stop, take stock and enjoy the old days and moments which have made my life memorable...that's how I motivate myself from moving on. It's all about inspitation and hope for a better dawn, and that's my philosophy I will be adopting for the next few years ahead.
Right now though, I have to settle an article for a freind of mine which I have owed for a very long time, but it's not my fault really...it's that staff choose not to be around during the holidays and there's nothing I can do abut it really. So that's that.
Anyway, here's a few things that I am living and enjoying now, just to think about...apart from their working styes which I may not come to terms for some, these private moments have been something to treasure...Maybe there is still some good, fun and hope in this world:
- MC reunion gathering on 30/12/05. It certainly was a good gathering of sorts, reliving those days at the chalet a year ago where we played ourselves crazy. Indeed, I always tell myself that regarding the MC, it may not be a good experience working with them, but privately, they are a fine bunch to hang out with.
- 26th MC gathering. Old days I managed to relive as I got to talk to some of the raggers who are also there, but more vitally, I managed to get some work over food and BBQ. How about that for a start?
- Remus-Rosti Gathering, just last night. If I ever have something that I will always treasure in 2005, it's the fact that I got to know a brilliant bunch of people who are funky, understanding, cranky and yet so lobing at the same time. That's why I can never ever thank Remus and Rosti enough for they came to my life as I was staring down at the lowest ebb of my MC tenure, both physically and mentally. It is not an understatement to say that outlook on life has brightened up because of them, and that's why I will always treasure that. Take yesterday as a good example, we still managed to eat, crap, play and sing ourselves like there was not tomorrow! For once, I was just able to unwind with them...thanks to you guys for coming to my life when I needed you guys the most.
That about sums up what happened last week, minus the bidding for my modules which is a big headache, now that I have to do well in all of it to keep my overall average up. Looks like I have to explore the option of studying at SMU to kick up my grades, but right now I will leave it to a later time to think about that.
More updates on my modules soon enough...
I have set out my resolutions just before the clock struck, so I hope that they still fit as my targets for this year. Oops, I think I am starting to have childish thoughts again, but the idea is that I am reliving the old days...
Indeed, coming to a certain stage like I am experiencing now, it's always good to stop, take stock and enjoy the old days and moments which have made my life memorable...that's how I motivate myself from moving on. It's all about inspitation and hope for a better dawn, and that's my philosophy I will be adopting for the next few years ahead.
Right now though, I have to settle an article for a freind of mine which I have owed for a very long time, but it's not my fault really...it's that staff choose not to be around during the holidays and there's nothing I can do abut it really. So that's that.
Anyway, here's a few things that I am living and enjoying now, just to think about...apart from their working styes which I may not come to terms for some, these private moments have been something to treasure...Maybe there is still some good, fun and hope in this world:
- MC reunion gathering on 30/12/05. It certainly was a good gathering of sorts, reliving those days at the chalet a year ago where we played ourselves crazy. Indeed, I always tell myself that regarding the MC, it may not be a good experience working with them, but privately, they are a fine bunch to hang out with.
- 26th MC gathering. Old days I managed to relive as I got to talk to some of the raggers who are also there, but more vitally, I managed to get some work over food and BBQ. How about that for a start?
- Remus-Rosti Gathering, just last night. If I ever have something that I will always treasure in 2005, it's the fact that I got to know a brilliant bunch of people who are funky, understanding, cranky and yet so lobing at the same time. That's why I can never ever thank Remus and Rosti enough for they came to my life as I was staring down at the lowest ebb of my MC tenure, both physically and mentally. It is not an understatement to say that outlook on life has brightened up because of them, and that's why I will always treasure that. Take yesterday as a good example, we still managed to eat, crap, play and sing ourselves like there was not tomorrow! For once, I was just able to unwind with them...thanks to you guys for coming to my life when I needed you guys the most.
That about sums up what happened last week, minus the bidding for my modules which is a big headache, now that I have to do well in all of it to keep my overall average up. Looks like I have to explore the option of studying at SMU to kick up my grades, but right now I will leave it to a later time to think about that.
More updates on my modules soon enough...
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