Someone just commented that there is no private blog...
This is with reference to the blogging issue that came up during a fellow NUS undergrad's exchange to China...
However, when one blogs, it is mostly about his own feelings regarding a certain issue, so definitely that has to be understood in a personal context. Still, when one makes certain remarks, one must specify however if it is purely because of the incident itself, or it is really personal. Just like how I defined mine. I declared it as work when it is work, personal when it is personal. Do it and miscommuications can be much avoided.
Ok back to the other issues...
Arts Camo just ended, and I guess I will feel left out when I resume Rag this Sunday. That is because I don't think I will have much people or freshies to talk to, and that's when I have to work everything from scratch... But more importantly, Rag must get going. There have been problems along the way, some big, some small, but we managed to resolve in the best way possible now, so the only thing left is to get the rest of the stuff done.
Only 1 month remains, so guys, if you all can chip in anyhow, just give me an sms, or drop me a ring. Your help is very much appreciated...and any form will do! :) Soft tech, hard tech, dance, etc... I thank you guys on behalf of Rag com 2006!
But I still have to settle CCA stuff as usual, with payments still outstanding and other issues to handle as well...so it looks like I will have a really busy week ahead, whether I like it or not.
Friday, June 30, 2006
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Life...as it is
I think I just want to add to what I just said...
It's never easy working at any place, any organisation.
Everywhere you go, you will make friends. But at the same time, you do make enemies, whether is it accidentally, or because of circumstances.
What I have come to realise is that at the end of it all, so long as one retains his own principles, and maintains his dignity at the end of it all, he can then be said to be a hero irregardless of what happens.
JFK, Gandhi, Jinnah, Bill Gates, Winston Churchill, FDR...and the list goes on.
They were heroes, but they had enemies as well.
I too have made enemies, but I have made a lot of good friends whom I know I can spend my time with in the times to come.
It is time for me to decide whether I should make the step up, but I will do the best to my abilities.
I am who I am, and it's now time to decide what's good, what's bad, and what should be preserved and defended in my own opinion. If someone wants to spoil my reputation, I will give that person a 'wonderful' time...so 'good' that he will regret ever messing with me.
I have been an innocent and compromising fool for too long a while now...
Time has come for a change.
It's never easy working at any place, any organisation.
Everywhere you go, you will make friends. But at the same time, you do make enemies, whether is it accidentally, or because of circumstances.
What I have come to realise is that at the end of it all, so long as one retains his own principles, and maintains his dignity at the end of it all, he can then be said to be a hero irregardless of what happens.
JFK, Gandhi, Jinnah, Bill Gates, Winston Churchill, FDR...and the list goes on.
They were heroes, but they had enemies as well.
I too have made enemies, but I have made a lot of good friends whom I know I can spend my time with in the times to come.
It is time for me to decide whether I should make the step up, but I will do the best to my abilities.
I am who I am, and it's now time to decide what's good, what's bad, and what should be preserved and defended in my own opinion. If someone wants to spoil my reputation, I will give that person a 'wonderful' time...so 'good' that he will regret ever messing with me.
I have been an innocent and compromising fool for too long a while now...
Time has come for a change.
The issue of backstabbing...my reply to a reply on my last post
The issue of backstabbing...and accusing her no reason...
As it has always been, is that I have been accused of these 2 charges.
Need I remind a friend of mine that she has nothing to gain by playing this issue with me. She may be wiser, more experienced in handling society matters than I am, she has to kindly understand that I have refrained myself from disrupting any friendly working atmosphere there exists among us all.
To the rest of you who are reading this, this friend of mine is thinking that I am running for the next committee. And of course she thinks that I have an unassailable position, and now she wants to spill out my mistakes. She may be good, academically wise, brain wise, and whatever good points she has mentioned, but she has committed a mistake which I am not happy with.
But allow me to clarify some issues:
- First of all, I have not decided about what to do next semester. So her assumption that I will be running for something higher in my CCA now is unfounded. After all, I have not said that I am going to.
- In her point that I have acted as nothing has happened, my response to her is: I separate work from personal matters. So if she wants to carry this on, let it be. Because I know what needs to be sorted out at what level.
- Of course I am still inexperienced in these things, so if she wants to take this to me, I may not win, I admit. But I will not let anyone destroy my name.
- And if she thinks that I will renounce my friendship because of this matter, then I think I may have wasted one year knowing her as a friend. If she wants to disrupt my personal life, and if I know that happens, I will just be disappointed. She, as my senior, and at a higher position here, should be mature enought to understand that.
My friendship with my boss is what made me join the committee in the first place. Brotherhood? I beg to differ. Obviously she has not made an attempt to understand what I have been doing behind the scenes. Not that I can blame her for that. We each have 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 nose, 1 mouth, and we have so many things to sort out ourselves.
And of course, this space is mine.
Therefore, this will be my reply to her post on her blog that I will not reveal to respect her privacy, not like her who has chosen to reveal mine.
Not that I have any dark conscience. To the contrary, I have been doing my stuff week in and week out, and I do not need to tell the whole world what I am doing to glorify myself.
But I am not going to change my principles just because of this incident.
Life is not easy...and we all make mistakes. The key issue is to learn. And not to make any assumptions.
Have I made any? I will not say anything about this, since someone else can always argue that I have made some assumptions somewhere.
At the end of the day, I still hail my Rag spirit in helping me tide this issue. Saying which I must apologise to all raggers who have gone for Arts Camp since I did not make it. It's for things like this which now warrant my attention.
And to her final charge that she thinks that I am not well enough to play but to do something else...I have not been well, but not ill enough to ignore my raggers whom I have neglected for these 2 weeks while busy with SMUN...carrying newspapers is less exerting that playing a game. I have divided my time such that I have to settle for both socety matters and rag equally.
As for the two parties that I mentioned in the last post, I honestly tell the truth when I say that it's always nice to have you both as my truly close friends. I appreciate that. But in my opinion we have a fundamental difference in working styles that I am afraid we can never reconcile. So therefore since I may not be seeing you both that often again in the months to come, I sincerely wish the best to you both in your endeavours, everything else in life.
This is my one and only official reply, and I want to say this again:
My displeasure is over Work, never Personal. No personal damage intended.
As it has always been, is that I have been accused of these 2 charges.
Need I remind a friend of mine that she has nothing to gain by playing this issue with me. She may be wiser, more experienced in handling society matters than I am, she has to kindly understand that I have refrained myself from disrupting any friendly working atmosphere there exists among us all.
To the rest of you who are reading this, this friend of mine is thinking that I am running for the next committee. And of course she thinks that I have an unassailable position, and now she wants to spill out my mistakes. She may be good, academically wise, brain wise, and whatever good points she has mentioned, but she has committed a mistake which I am not happy with.
But allow me to clarify some issues:
- First of all, I have not decided about what to do next semester. So her assumption that I will be running for something higher in my CCA now is unfounded. After all, I have not said that I am going to.
- In her point that I have acted as nothing has happened, my response to her is: I separate work from personal matters. So if she wants to carry this on, let it be. Because I know what needs to be sorted out at what level.
- Of course I am still inexperienced in these things, so if she wants to take this to me, I may not win, I admit. But I will not let anyone destroy my name.
- And if she thinks that I will renounce my friendship because of this matter, then I think I may have wasted one year knowing her as a friend. If she wants to disrupt my personal life, and if I know that happens, I will just be disappointed. She, as my senior, and at a higher position here, should be mature enought to understand that.
My friendship with my boss is what made me join the committee in the first place. Brotherhood? I beg to differ. Obviously she has not made an attempt to understand what I have been doing behind the scenes. Not that I can blame her for that. We each have 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 nose, 1 mouth, and we have so many things to sort out ourselves.
And of course, this space is mine.
Therefore, this will be my reply to her post on her blog that I will not reveal to respect her privacy, not like her who has chosen to reveal mine.
Not that I have any dark conscience. To the contrary, I have been doing my stuff week in and week out, and I do not need to tell the whole world what I am doing to glorify myself.
But I am not going to change my principles just because of this incident.
Life is not easy...and we all make mistakes. The key issue is to learn. And not to make any assumptions.
Have I made any? I will not say anything about this, since someone else can always argue that I have made some assumptions somewhere.
At the end of the day, I still hail my Rag spirit in helping me tide this issue. Saying which I must apologise to all raggers who have gone for Arts Camp since I did not make it. It's for things like this which now warrant my attention.
And to her final charge that she thinks that I am not well enough to play but to do something else...I have not been well, but not ill enough to ignore my raggers whom I have neglected for these 2 weeks while busy with SMUN...carrying newspapers is less exerting that playing a game. I have divided my time such that I have to settle for both socety matters and rag equally.
As for the two parties that I mentioned in the last post, I honestly tell the truth when I say that it's always nice to have you both as my truly close friends. I appreciate that. But in my opinion we have a fundamental difference in working styles that I am afraid we can never reconcile. So therefore since I may not be seeing you both that often again in the months to come, I sincerely wish the best to you both in your endeavours, everything else in life.
This is my one and only official reply, and I want to say this again:
My displeasure is over Work, never Personal. No personal damage intended.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Updates...and a message for some others
It has been a while since I posted here...so here goes with the updates from the past 3 weeks...
SMUN 2006 done from 7/6 to 9/6 was a successful event to say the very least...when it was done, I did not feel joy. Rather, I felt relief more than anything else. One the one hand, I was helpless at the few people who were just free riding the past 4 months of plannig, leading up the the quarrels, spats and all. Also, there have been cases of unilateralism at the wrong times when the vital reports of others have been discarded or chucked aside for the reason that they do not want to hear the truth that is the bad news.
Anyway, I have talked to the relevant people and though I am nt satisfied by their replies, I decided to let it pass. Well, I am not the boss of SMUN. I compensated the Logistics team for their hard work by giving them a well deserved treat at the end of the day at Holland V. That is the very least that I could do to help them.
And now, SMUN ends with me trying to sort out the outstanding debt and finances I have to do myself. I will get that settled as soon as possible...
The next weekend, I helped out Jingyi and the raggers in doing Karang Guni collection in Ang Mo Kio. It was definitely a more meaningful way to spend the weekend, rather than having an exercise session, or doing other stuff. Sure was a great time for me as I experienced what it really took to be a newspaper collector. At the end of the day, managed to raise $760...long live raggers! That would sure go a long way in settling a lot of debts that the committee has spent so far.
In the midst of it, I am repaying my debt to the raggers by staying in school to help build up the float...I know my role has been minimal, but I can say that I am doing my bit to help build the float, from the hard tech side at the very least. The only reason why I am not doing so much for the soft tech side is because I am a 'rough' person, and I am not suited at decorating stuff myself.
Just this week, I went for a meeting that was to reorganise SMUN secretariat for the next session in 2007...and there emerged a big spat between me and my VP. Not that I am going to say that who is in the wrong, but I am being at the end of her personal attacks against me. Obviously I was trying to argue from the side of reason and logic, but I could see that she was trying to push her agenda to the forefront. To make things simmer down, my boss decided to adjourn things to a later date, with a lot more ramifications.
I am not afraid to say this, and I will say it.
The PD of SMUN 2006 and my VP are such people that I regret meeting, because like my pervious boss (I will not mention who, but you guys will know who I want to talk about - yes, it's him), they epitomise the 3 things I do not want to see:
- like to hog the limelight
- untactical and unreasonable
- pushing their own agenda forward at all costs, and not being logical.
My PR skills may not be top notch by a long shot, but at least I know that I am responsible and committed...and that I will see things through whatever the cost because I know it benefits everyone. And I know what the word SHIT means.
The other 2 people don't, and they will never know. Good luck to them...
At the end of the day, I can only say that my resilience is being built all thanks to Rag.
Rag 2006 - Be Raggerfied with victory...because this is the one which Arts will stand up all.
SMUN 2006 done from 7/6 to 9/6 was a successful event to say the very least...when it was done, I did not feel joy. Rather, I felt relief more than anything else. One the one hand, I was helpless at the few people who were just free riding the past 4 months of plannig, leading up the the quarrels, spats and all. Also, there have been cases of unilateralism at the wrong times when the vital reports of others have been discarded or chucked aside for the reason that they do not want to hear the truth that is the bad news.
Anyway, I have talked to the relevant people and though I am nt satisfied by their replies, I decided to let it pass. Well, I am not the boss of SMUN. I compensated the Logistics team for their hard work by giving them a well deserved treat at the end of the day at Holland V. That is the very least that I could do to help them.
And now, SMUN ends with me trying to sort out the outstanding debt and finances I have to do myself. I will get that settled as soon as possible...
The next weekend, I helped out Jingyi and the raggers in doing Karang Guni collection in Ang Mo Kio. It was definitely a more meaningful way to spend the weekend, rather than having an exercise session, or doing other stuff. Sure was a great time for me as I experienced what it really took to be a newspaper collector. At the end of the day, managed to raise $760...long live raggers! That would sure go a long way in settling a lot of debts that the committee has spent so far.
In the midst of it, I am repaying my debt to the raggers by staying in school to help build up the float...I know my role has been minimal, but I can say that I am doing my bit to help build the float, from the hard tech side at the very least. The only reason why I am not doing so much for the soft tech side is because I am a 'rough' person, and I am not suited at decorating stuff myself.
Just this week, I went for a meeting that was to reorganise SMUN secretariat for the next session in 2007...and there emerged a big spat between me and my VP. Not that I am going to say that who is in the wrong, but I am being at the end of her personal attacks against me. Obviously I was trying to argue from the side of reason and logic, but I could see that she was trying to push her agenda to the forefront. To make things simmer down, my boss decided to adjourn things to a later date, with a lot more ramifications.
I am not afraid to say this, and I will say it.
The PD of SMUN 2006 and my VP are such people that I regret meeting, because like my pervious boss (I will not mention who, but you guys will know who I want to talk about - yes, it's him), they epitomise the 3 things I do not want to see:
- like to hog the limelight
- untactical and unreasonable
- pushing their own agenda forward at all costs, and not being logical.
My PR skills may not be top notch by a long shot, but at least I know that I am responsible and committed...and that I will see things through whatever the cost because I know it benefits everyone. And I know what the word SHIT means.
The other 2 people don't, and they will never know. Good luck to them...
At the end of the day, I can only say that my resilience is being built all thanks to Rag.
Rag 2006 - Be Raggerfied with victory...because this is the one which Arts will stand up all.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Who appreciates?
I just have to send this up...
I saw a very tired Lionel today...he's looking a lot more haggard than I have seen him two weeks ago...something is not right.
I do not see the zest he had when he started out with Rag in January, what I saw was a very tired Lionel before Arts Camp pre-camp. I do not know why am I seeing that.
Then I look at myself and am frustrated with the way I am doing my job for SMUN next week. I have been too accomodating. Too accomodating that I have shot myself in the foot. Then I realise that I have been looking a lot more tired.
Tired of all the power politics. Tired because there are just a lot of selfish people wanting to pursue their means without considering others. Tired becase people have been using others to ride other working mates together.
I am irritated, frustrated and pissed off.
Who exactly appreciates all the slack people like me and Lionel do?
Some people just take people who slogged off like us for granted.
I saw a very tired Lionel today...he's looking a lot more haggard than I have seen him two weeks ago...something is not right.
I do not see the zest he had when he started out with Rag in January, what I saw was a very tired Lionel before Arts Camp pre-camp. I do not know why am I seeing that.
Then I look at myself and am frustrated with the way I am doing my job for SMUN next week. I have been too accomodating. Too accomodating that I have shot myself in the foot. Then I realise that I have been looking a lot more tired.
Tired of all the power politics. Tired because there are just a lot of selfish people wanting to pursue their means without considering others. Tired becase people have been using others to ride other working mates together.
I am irritated, frustrated and pissed off.
Who exactly appreciates all the slack people like me and Lionel do?
Some people just take people who slogged off like us for granted.
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