It has been another week, but this one's like it's really ending it all this time...
Thank you Dinner 2005 at the M Hotel will be something that I will personally not forget for the rest of my life. I thought if there was to be something which will mark the complete transition of the Arts Club leadership, this would seriously be it.
It has been a long while recollecting all those moments which I have gone with the MC for the past academic year. All this way, I cannot forget the fact that it all seemed like yesterday when I am in another thank you dinner for the 24th MC. Then on, I cannot forget the words the seniors whom I have deep respect for told me when I stepped up. The words of support that Keyou, Aaron, Joey, Big Ben, Rudy, Jasmine have told me. I cannot forget every single word of it.
Fast forward to one year later.
I have come to a self-evaluation of myself, and as I shook the hands of the same people whom I talked to last time around, I can proudly walk tall again. The same people have told me that my contributions to the development of Insomniac will always be remembered among those who can see it, and told me to carry on whatever I am doing now. A few of my friends also congratulated me in the manner that I have done my work that is clear and transparent for all to see.
I thought I might as well take the chance to thank a few people here.
Through my whole tenure in MC: Gerri and Ivan. I cannot ask for any better help than this wonderful couple in helping through my rough patches in MC.
Raggers 2005: Benedict, Ian, Christine, Celine, Keyou, the whole of Rag Com, Reuben, Brandon, Jennifer, Denise, Charlotte, Yuen Mei, Shu Ning, all the techies and dancers plus the whole of my Arts Camp OG, Remus for carrying on the ragger tradition all the way to the max!
MC wise: to these people whom I sought counsel the most: Beng, Hock, and the rest... I love you all...
My cell level: Gregory, Gabriel, Bhavani and Selena
My emotional and moral levels of support: Joey, Aaron
And not forgetting the ever special Jianwu and Fiona...
It hit me on the students exchange forum for the Arts Faculty CCAs that Chuin was not particularly happy at the fact that I am still associating myself with Arts Club although I have technically stepped down. I just do not wish to tell her that, but it's hard for me to walk out on them even though I admit that there have been unpleasant moments in there which I want to forget. It's difficult to just walk away like that, but I must do that in PS Soc as well. Right now, I just need time to compose myself, and seriously work on my new portfolio now.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Somethings hit me hard...
It has been 2 weeks...since my last post...
That's because it took me a while to think about a few things, and the fact that it has been a momentous 14 days, so I needed to reflect on what I am doing, and I just realised how how these things have been on me.
The 26th MC Internals was momentous in a big way for me, because it signified that whatever happened in the elections, the 25th MC will be in existence for only 1 more week, and the fate of the club for the next year lies in the hands of the 26th...to add to the equation, 2 people had already dropped out, in which i personally think that is very disheartening given that there were very few seniors, and now only 3 remain...
The elections was far more peculiar than any election that I have seen, with a lot of NCV (i will not tell what that is,), a few contested positions for slots that I don't think can ever get contested (NUSSU included), and they did, including mine, and the whole process ended at around 3.30 am. I was personally not happy at the way the nominees for my post campaigned for it, for they both wanted me to help out largely in their cell. Hey, so much for potential leadership for these 2. In the end, one triumphed, and by what I have already promised, I have to help, and seemingly, my fate to Arts club does not end with the 25th. At least not for now.
Something did strike me that the freshies in the 26th MC did not really know what they were running for, and how are they going to work about their new job scopes. To add on to the story, it seems that there were a lot of people in my MC who were against Hock running for President, in which he got it after a contest. But i openly supported him because I know him well, and while admitting that there are new problems that he is going to handle both internal and external, and both are of urgent priorities, I know that he is the only man who can do the job. No one else can do that. The same cannot be said for my successor though, but I will do my very best to help out.
Cos this is the place where I started from, and I am obliged to give something back to it.
Fast forward to 10 days later, and the AGM. This was the day where I was waiting for...the day which I gave my report on what I have achieved since the whole academic year. That's where I found my report to be an amended version, and a very sudden one, which my last 3 points were cut off. Just like that.
I will never forgive the person who edited my report, because she is making a mockery of what I have done. I have done given my 110% for this place, and this is what I get in return?
Seriously, by the time you read this, my friend, I may do something about this, and I will make sure that she will live with that mistake for the rest of the time that she is still here. I am truly disappointed that this has to happen, but it must be done. It will be subtle, but the aim of itnwill still be achieved. That she must exercise responsibility for whatever she does, and she cannot get away scot free just like that. People like her are what pisses me off the most.
Still, back to the issue...AGM took a rather long time to conclude, but when it was over, something larger had hit me in my mind. The 25th MC had ceased to exist. Just like that.
A year has passed since the day the last AGM came...and I guessed I have matured a lot more...I know better how this place operates now, and I have decided that my time has come and gone for me. How people will remember and judge me as a person in both work and personally is up to them, for I have totally nothing to hide.
I work and leave this place with my character and dignity intact.
Now all my efforts are on just 3 things: studies, PSSOC, and catching up with friends that I have lost touch with since I started work in the 25th one year ago...
That's because it took me a while to think about a few things, and the fact that it has been a momentous 14 days, so I needed to reflect on what I am doing, and I just realised how how these things have been on me.
The 26th MC Internals was momentous in a big way for me, because it signified that whatever happened in the elections, the 25th MC will be in existence for only 1 more week, and the fate of the club for the next year lies in the hands of the 26th...to add to the equation, 2 people had already dropped out, in which i personally think that is very disheartening given that there were very few seniors, and now only 3 remain...
The elections was far more peculiar than any election that I have seen, with a lot of NCV (i will not tell what that is,), a few contested positions for slots that I don't think can ever get contested (NUSSU included), and they did, including mine, and the whole process ended at around 3.30 am. I was personally not happy at the way the nominees for my post campaigned for it, for they both wanted me to help out largely in their cell. Hey, so much for potential leadership for these 2. In the end, one triumphed, and by what I have already promised, I have to help, and seemingly, my fate to Arts club does not end with the 25th. At least not for now.
Something did strike me that the freshies in the 26th MC did not really know what they were running for, and how are they going to work about their new job scopes. To add on to the story, it seems that there were a lot of people in my MC who were against Hock running for President, in which he got it after a contest. But i openly supported him because I know him well, and while admitting that there are new problems that he is going to handle both internal and external, and both are of urgent priorities, I know that he is the only man who can do the job. No one else can do that. The same cannot be said for my successor though, but I will do my very best to help out.
Cos this is the place where I started from, and I am obliged to give something back to it.
Fast forward to 10 days later, and the AGM. This was the day where I was waiting for...the day which I gave my report on what I have achieved since the whole academic year. That's where I found my report to be an amended version, and a very sudden one, which my last 3 points were cut off. Just like that.
I will never forgive the person who edited my report, because she is making a mockery of what I have done. I have done given my 110% for this place, and this is what I get in return?
Seriously, by the time you read this, my friend, I may do something about this, and I will make sure that she will live with that mistake for the rest of the time that she is still here. I am truly disappointed that this has to happen, but it must be done. It will be subtle, but the aim of itnwill still be achieved. That she must exercise responsibility for whatever she does, and she cannot get away scot free just like that. People like her are what pisses me off the most.
Still, back to the issue...AGM took a rather long time to conclude, but when it was over, something larger had hit me in my mind. The 25th MC had ceased to exist. Just like that.
A year has passed since the day the last AGM came...and I guessed I have matured a lot more...I know better how this place operates now, and I have decided that my time has come and gone for me. How people will remember and judge me as a person in both work and personally is up to them, for I have totally nothing to hide.
I work and leave this place with my character and dignity intact.
Now all my efforts are on just 3 things: studies, PSSOC, and catching up with friends that I have lost touch with since I started work in the 25th one year ago...
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Priorities...
I am typing this now after having a few chats with a few friends of mine, some being very close friends, others being people I have worked with in Arts Club itself...I have learnt a few insights...
ROP did reveal a few key things for me, as I came to realise...not just for the participants, but also for the committee itself. Firstly, the dynamics of the 26th are not as strong as I thought. There have been mini cliques among groups of people, and there has been kind of ostracising towards one fellow member of the 26th MC...that's so much as to what I have seen in the 26th for the time I have been able to spend for ROP....
I compare that in contrast to PS Soc and the com that I am in. The situation that I have seen is much more different than what I have seen in ROP itself...I put it very simply, it's obvious that the com has been able to discuss sbout club affairs openly and above board even though we have different ideas and opinions about them. All this without going thru an MC camp or anythng of this sort. Hmm...that makes me think whether ROP actually divides the com and hurts com dynamics from the start. That problem did arise in the 25th....so...anyway....
Just checked out the figures I have to raise in my new post...it's pretty outstanding to say the least...in all respects, that's some work for me to look at, so hmm...will definitely pose a new challenge of sorts to me...I am relishing this.
Haiz, I must rebalance this with school work...readings, tutorials, projects, etc...so I am in effect as busy as a bee in my own right.
Memories are hard to forget...I will always treasure them....especially for what has happened the minute I stepped into NUS since.
ROP did reveal a few key things for me, as I came to realise...not just for the participants, but also for the committee itself. Firstly, the dynamics of the 26th are not as strong as I thought. There have been mini cliques among groups of people, and there has been kind of ostracising towards one fellow member of the 26th MC...that's so much as to what I have seen in the 26th for the time I have been able to spend for ROP....
I compare that in contrast to PS Soc and the com that I am in. The situation that I have seen is much more different than what I have seen in ROP itself...I put it very simply, it's obvious that the com has been able to discuss sbout club affairs openly and above board even though we have different ideas and opinions about them. All this without going thru an MC camp or anythng of this sort. Hmm...that makes me think whether ROP actually divides the com and hurts com dynamics from the start. That problem did arise in the 25th....so...anyway....
Just checked out the figures I have to raise in my new post...it's pretty outstanding to say the least...in all respects, that's some work for me to look at, so hmm...will definitely pose a new challenge of sorts to me...I am relishing this.
Haiz, I must rebalance this with school work...readings, tutorials, projects, etc...so I am in effect as busy as a bee in my own right.
Memories are hard to forget...I will always treasure them....especially for what has happened the minute I stepped into NUS since.
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