Just angry...

I just came out of a meeting with my friends who are going down to Boston in a few weeks time. And I came out of it feeling frustrated, esasperated and feeling very out of place.

It just came as a friend of mine was saying something that was not going right with marketing...I cannot fathom why this happened, but it is also with merit as some of us have not been fully committed and responsible. Just that I have a feeling that her meeting with the Deanery pissed her off big time. Still, I think if she put things in perspective, she should have changed her tone in telling us of the gravity of the situation. Not that I want to spoil things, but the way she delivered her lecture to all of us is definitely not only going to damper the mood for the trip and conference, but also going to sour relations among all of us.

Makes me think whether she trusted anyone else other than her close confidants...I just don't want to have that thought. But the more I think about it, the more it may make sense. I have been wanting to give people the benefit of the doubt, because we all have flaws. I also have flaws, some big and some small, but I definitely know how to control the situation and put things into perspective. At least I don't guys a sermon, I only deliver hard facts. I understand her frustration because we have not been gettin the funds that we need for this trip, but that's just not the way to tell us. From the way she spoke, she made of herself as the angel and the rest of us as devils, and that's what really pissed me off big time. No kidding.

This comes on the back of frustrating personal problems I am expriencing...my parents having a big spat, me having a bad tooth (suspected). starting to lose my way in my tutorials, having less sleep, and now dealing with more society stuff and etc. The problem is that while I am revelling in my role as mentor to my juniors who have to carry heavy responsibility for some of them, I often ask myself every night before I sleep: who do I turn to when I have frustrations?
It's because of my work ethic and study expectations that leave me with little choice but to push ahead...but who can I really talk to about this?

I guess that's why I have this blog.

Some other joyful matters...Rag 2006 has formaly started, but missed the meeting of the techies, in any case it was inevitable because of the heavier priority of settling admin matters for Boston, but I am still keeping myself in touch nonetheless.

SMUN 2006 venue is confirmed: EH! At least managed to relieve my PD's burden...now the problem is how to go about it, but will be meeting her and her deputy ( that makes it 2 nice girls...thank the lords :) ) soon enough to work on the implementation.

My portfolio is getting ok now, now coming to terms with it. Will be submitting some statemensts later today, and try to sort out some stuff at the same time.

And lastly, Happy Doggie Year to the Following:

- All my friends who know of my blog (that's only limited to the special 5...as my dear friends, happy ner year to all!)
- To the one person who has managed to find my blog even though I have not told anyone about it...
- Family of course, that including my sis-in-law
- Remus 2005!
- PS Society
- Rag 2006 com
- 25th MC

That's all....woof to Chinese New Year!

P.S. To the one man who found my blog...do me a favour...don't inform others of this blog of mine. Because I am only restricting it to people who know my character well to understand my frustrations...and Happy New Year to you!