Uneasiness...and a confession

I had an uneasy few days now to say the very least.

For the need to settle outstanding CCA matters, I have just about incurred the wrath of the rest who have wanted to see things but so far had not happened.

There is worse to come though, but the consolating part of it all is that it should be settled by 1st September 2006. Anyhow, that is.

A good friend of mine showed me a message that was sent by my ex boss, and while he told me how saddened it was, I was not surprised to say the least. Well, as I told him, for this issue, I way suspected her motives all the while long when all this started. Because I think I was the only one who saw that she was not doing the project for the love of it, rather, she wants to do it well so as to further her agenda forward…or so it may or may not seem.

This is sad because in my opinion, that equals to telling me that I have wasted a lot of precious time being miserable and yet kept alive only by the passion that has kept me going…Then I asked myself this question again:

So what are my priorities this time around? What is it that I really like to do?

What is my ultimate dream activity that I want to organise for myself here?

After considering it over the weekend, I have come to a decision. Suddenly, I feel at peace with myself.

To all my friends out there who think who have not gained anything beneficial or enjoyed your university life because you have been doing things that had not been to your liking, my advice is leave and really invest time in doing what you love and want to do.

Because it is from what you love doing that you also learn the most out of what you want to achieve. Trust me.

Finally, I have dedicated this final paragraph to one special person who I know I truly love…

To this special one…it has been a special way of knowing you for the past 13 months…I do not know what eventually led us to this, but I can only say that fate has gotten us together. The very fact that we have stuck through after several of our own tribulations shows that this is meant to last, and I truly hope that you can truly consider it and walk this next road of my life together with me. I suppose this is an open declaration of love, I admit, but due to the special circumstances of it, I know this is my most sincere way of telling you that I am ready for anything that comes. I have seen a lot of relationships spark and fizzle out, but I really hope that ours will always burn with passion and love.

In any case, I just want to say: I truly like you and will stick out with you for anything and through anything.

For all the rest of you guys out there, this may seem stupid to you, but just take it that you are reading this from a guy that has learnt to cherish everything that he knows must be hold tight and close…for so many things have happened in this world that have made me learn to be more protective of what I truly believe and treasure in…especially this.

Love, Alvin.