Stress..and a message for someone

Results were out last friday...but obviously they have not been well...

I have been telling myself to put things into perspective...but instead got a heavy berating from my mum instead. Some may call me mamma's boy, but believe me, it's never nice when u get a heavy berating from my mum, even though I personally felt that I did all I could with my current results in this situation.

Still, this pressure exerted on me by my parents, relatives, whom some of my relatives only know how to play hypocrite because they look down on me just gets to me. The consolation from this is that I have managed it well so far, but I can tell you that I will be over the boiling point soon.

I have my work cut out for myself next semester. That's all I know right now.

Another thing that has been troubling me these few days is society work. I talked to some of my working mates in the upcoming Singapore Model United Nations Conference and they have told me about their displeasures with the boss. One has even gone to the extent of washing his hands off the matter. It took a lot of persuasion to tell him to help do this last favour that I saw it important, and then let him rest his mind and enjoy his reservist and the rest of his days with his girlfriend.

The next paragraph is for the person in question, and you do not need to read of course.

Theresa, if you are looking at this right now, (if you stumble upon it), the person I am talking about is you. The cardinal sin you have committed is that you have overridden a lot of people without even telling them what you are planning to do in the first place. I do not want to tell this to you in person because I do not want to spoil the dynamics of SMUN. But in any case, if you are not aware, you have pissed off key members of the administration team with the way things you have done. That also includes me, although I can understand some of your frustrations. Still, you cannot allow yourself to be overridden by someone, knock down another person in a msn chat and then do what you want without even telling us. It will put us in a very tight spot.

In case I forget, rag has been going good...

Had a good dinner with the raggers, including a surprise visit by Fiona (not for me since she told me that she's already coming last week). Fiona...thanks for your presence...you rock!

The following is for Lionel: Lionel, if you read this, I just want to tell you this:

Your confidence in us was not unfounded...we managed to get the float down to where you wanted, but in the process, you have to buy a lot of us makan soonz! :P (16 of us in fact)

Be raggerfied...and long live SMUN for next week!

One anniversary on...

I have been praying to the gods as normal on the evenings whenever I am at home, and did realise something when some time ago since my last post...

Everyone will undergo trials and tribulations...the one who emerges champion is the one who can overcome them all...no matter how insurmountable they are to overcome.

It's that simple.

It does not seem that difficult to realise that it is the solution I have been looking for in life.

May the Gods give me their blessings in granting me fine results this coming week...

Also, I just want to take this chance to celebrate the 'birthday' of my blog. It definitely has made me a calmer person ever since I have invested my efforts in it. And that's because I know you guys read this and appreciate my frustrations that I sometimes cannot say it out in the open.

Thanks to you all...I can never forget the support you guys have given me through my uni life. Really.

:D :D

Alvin

Disillusioned

Today's Vesak Day...and this is I think one of the most poignant days of my life.

Simply because I have been disillusioned...things have not been the same.

I just have been feeling that I am losing my own sense of direction, and even my own self-belief...

Just rejected going to Chuin's wedding...even though that was blocked by my mum, I reflected later that I might feel more miserable going down anyway.

Things have also not been the same for rag...

Just yesterday, when I was around, I was quite left out.

12 guys doing it...which was good, but I was the only senior around. I felt a bit lonely, because frankly speaking I have not been around at club room for some time. Just feeling left out because I have not been around to mingle with the rest of the com.

It will take some time.

May the Gods provide me with answers in the next few days...I admit I am seeking salvation...

But from where?

Exams end...and life goes on as normal...full of firsts

Exams finally eneded yesterday at 1900...

It's finally over...but in any case, I put in my very best effeort, so I am not going to fret about the results because this has come at a time when I have been more involved and busy as usual...

So many firsts...at a high position in a CCA, on a plane to a conference, meeting young intellectuals of my age. meeting and chatting about politics, having a near chance with a very eminent leader...

But then I have achieved yet another first today...nothing big, but just attending a PAP rally at UOB Plaza...

The content covered as interesting, as a lot of guys were all ears, and this was especially when the PM took the stand. Well some electoral issues came up as usual, but the fact is that I was a bit disappointed by the fact that nothing much was discussed with regards to creating jobs for my generation, and potential aid measrures for the elderly...

What does this mean? I leave to all to think about it...to me though, it's just politics.

Ok...now looking to something this coming friday...I will keep you all posted, but right now, the clue is that I hope for good news from a certain meeting on friday...this concerns one of the wishes that I set for my birthday...

Watch this space.