Valentine's Day and Remembrance: Remebering Jolene

Just come to write a short post on something that touches my heart...

Valentine's Day - 14/2 every year is supposed to be a happy day - where couples get hitched and express their love for one another for all eternity (or so much of the crap - because I am not attached yet)

But today, this post is not to commemorate the spirit of V-Day, rather, it is used here to commemorate the spirit of one fellow contemporary and PS Major, like me, but died very unfortunately at the tender age of 21.

Jolene Tan Jie Yi (1985-2007)

A person with immense fighting spirit, a young girl with a lot of willpower to presevere on her life even as she knew that her days and life were permanently twisted out of her hands as she cannot live her life and enjoy it like most of of us...

As I heard from my friends, she had an operation 3 years ago because her condition took a turn for the worse - and that was the last major operation before she passed away. She would have known about her own condition - and she might also have known that she might not have much longer to live back then.

But Jolene did not despair. She presevered on. Every time of the day she spent time as well as she could, even as it meant that she slowly walked to lectures and classes with her friends following her every step, every move...she kept up to pace with the lessons she did. I can remember seeing her with her bright radiant smile as I took a module with her last semester. I cannot come to terms with the fact that behind her laughter and bright smile, that this very pretty and feisty gal had deep troubles that vert few will even muster the courage to meet it head on. Not me definitely.

I cannot say much since I am not one of her close friends. But what I can tell you is that after learning of what she has done through my friends who know her well makes me give her a lot of respect, my personal admiration. Because she never gave up. Because she never stopped in achieving what she wanted to do - to continue in the pursuit of learning, the fulfilment of her dreams.

One of my friends told me that we should not weep for her, but rather celebrate for her. Celebrate the life of hers because she has lived it to the max. Because she has lived it to the fullest. For that we will not weep, but we will say - Thank you, Jolene.

Thank you for showing us what it means to enjoy life to the fullest, and striving to achieve our dreams in all adversity.

Jolene, deep down in my heart, I salute you, and may the Gods bless you wherever you may be.

I hope that all of you, when you read this post, will pause to think and reflect about yourself. I am not perfect, and I realise how small I am compared to her. I will definitely revise my actions and be more accomodating in the pursuit of my dreams to achieve the very best in spite of all adversity.

I hope all of you embrace Jolene's spirit as well and use her as a role model in achieving our dreams in the right spirit and mentality - living life to the fullest.

Happy and Sad moments

As I learn today that as a famous Taiwanese actress was being cremated after dying young because of an accident...it struck me hard on one important moral of the story:

Life's short, treasure it and that means do the things that you need to do and make you happy. Because when death does come to you, you should not regret anything - really.

I apologise for that it is a very pessimistic comment, but this always rings true. Why is that friends always say a lot of times that their loved ones always regret on their deathbeds? I do not want that to happen to me when it is my time - goodness, so pessimistic already before I even reach my 1/4 of life...sighz

Good news first this time - Liverpool did beat Chelsea last time round -yeah! Finally, every dog has its day, and the hoodoo that Liverpool can never beat Chelsea when Mourinho is in charge is debunked...ole! That itself is a big cause of celebration. What this means is that hopefully they are much closer to grabbing their title which is long, long overdue.

However, there are more bad news to comment, but I will just save this space for this one. Important enough because this breaks my heart but I will not regret - that is what I know.

To my special one, I have told you 2 weekends ago that I cannot be with you any longer, and this post in which you will read by now, is confirmation of that very fact. As it hurts me to say this, however much you like me, I cannot bring myself to absorb the fact that you are not willing to consider any of the suggestions that I have given you to make your life better. All that I can only see is that you are making excuses, all of them - and you are still what you are in square one, distrusting every single guy who comes close to you. I have tolerated you very deeply because I like you for who you are, but I suppose this is the last straw because you have not changed one bit for the better. As for me, I learn now that I must find my happiness with someone else, and sad to say, I do not think that you are the one for me...Perhaps others will scold me for being selfish for leaving you just like that, but I do what I must do. We can at most be close friends, but never a couple. I bless you in finding a way out of your misery which sad to say, I don't think I can be your solution to your woes. I am not worthy to continue this relationship...so...I hope this makes you think over, because at the end of the day, you must help yourself - otherwise you cannot get others to love you if you cannot learn to love yourself...take care...

For the rest who read this, please do not ask me further about this...this is the end of the 2 of us, as it shall be, will be and...forever...be....