So much for recognition

I was reading Ivan's blog the other day, and it struck me about the issue of being recognised for what you have done.

This is a sensitive issue in my opinion. I don't think I have seen that many comments to a certain blog for the moment.

When people say that awards are superficial, I actually don't quite think that this is the case. Cut the 'big-hearted' crap. Especially when you have obviously done a damn lot more things than a lot of other people, and the ones getting the 'recognition' are those who haven't done a lot throughout the whole year, it is understandable to say that something is definitely wrong with the system.

Sometimes, the thing is that recognition is not given to the people who should be really commended. If that happens, or if you can see it happen, the very common sensible thing is just to ignore this whole thing and seek a better place which you will definitely be appreciated, or catch up on things that you have defnitely sacrificed for the thing that you have thought is worth it, but now it isn't anymore. Some of the comments on that blog tell the truth...I like the candidness. Sometimes, cronies do reign, and we cannot do anything about it. But life moves on, and there are better things to do than to sulk over this. I myself think that I deserve more, but what I have learnt is that popularity, not just hard work matters more.

Ivan, if you happen to stumble upon or read this, the above paragraph is for you.

Right now I am quite stressed. Just finished my history essay but still have 3 more to go, and the worse thing is, I have to quarrel with Jianwu over the President of the 26th. Jianwu, if you are reading this, you know what I have told you the other day. I admit that it is not nice, but I am still telling you this because I care and know you 100 times better than anyone else in NUS does. Not even she can compete with me on that. Anyway, do think about it. After all, I have already moved on, and I think that it is time you do the same. I have seen friends like you who have gone worse. Taken up smoking, wallowing in self pity, declaring no relationships and the what not, and yet they are still feeling miserable after this very long while. I don't want a friend like you to waste time thinking about things you should not spend time on. It's over, keep the good memories, cast away the bad, and just start walking in another positive direction.

Jianwu, this above paragraph is for you...

The last thing that I want to say is that I myself personally find it difficult to break through the invisible barrier of friendship between friends that I thought I know quite well. Today it strikes me that I am sort of kept out of the things that clearly define that although they recognise me as a friend, but I do not belong in their league. Friends itself is a big hierachy, ranging to personal friends who know you inside out and willing to share anything, to acquaintances, to the 'hi' and 'bye' friends. The issue is that to this new group of people, I am a little worried because as I am going to work with them, I am unable to bring matters and relations up a level. I suppose it's because of the fact that I have not been working with them last year. Until now, I am still being seen as a man from my previous organisation, that's why I am not being given the trust yet. Right now, I am just going to stick to my portfolio

Also, I have decided that MCP cannot go along with SNAG. I have personally analysed that that is the reason why I am not romantically involved. At least that's what some people tell me, that MCP is putting off a lot of people. So much for the new generation of people. But I suppose that must be done if I can stand any chance of getting romantically involved. I can only to find a suitable partner soon, for this is what I lack in my life right now. It sucks, but I am doing everything I can to resume my original character as a Mr Nice Guy, and nothing more at that. It just hit me that it is about time I settle down, or otherwise, I will be in big trouble when the time really comes to start a new generation. Friends have been asking me about a new girlfriend, but I have been ambivalent simply because of the fact that I do not have the confidence to woo girls, so as to speak. I will need advice on this soon.

Can someone tell me what should I do to make myself:
- more personable?
- more trusted?
- more recognised for what I am good at and not what I am good for as a commodity?

P.S. Boston confirmed!