Friday, October 06, 2006

The truth that is me

Indeed, the posts that I have put up for the last few days have attracted more than enough attention already...

As I know that my biggest weakness is lack of being more sensitive, understanding, and more forgiving, I am not very happy at the derogatory terms that have been thrown at me so far.

But I understand where these comments have come from, and I appreciate them coming. Because they are protective of their friends, and are entitled to do so. However, we each have different views on this matter, and that is what I want to say. I reiterate: I am willing to talk about it if anybody wants to.

For everything that I do, I carry no pretensions and do what I have set out to do.

With that I am content. And that is the way I will carry out myself in the future, no matter what others say of me.

I can only say this: I have learnt some lessons after some key moments in my life, and I will learn them as I walk on the road of life. After all, the road to being a complete person is never ending. I will continue to be honest, frank, sincere and humble. As I learnt a few days ago, I cannot please everybody, and must take everything in my stride. To accomodate everybody is to shoot myself in the foot in the end.

People who are hoping that I will close my blog because if these comments can dream on. Because to do means I am guilty. I am not guilty of any crime, and so I will not do this. I will still write the stories that are part of my life.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I only found out about this whole debacle recently and looking at everything that's preceded just makes me want to laugh at the stupidity of it. Or perhaps it's just you.

Your biggest weakness is not "lack of being more sensitive, understanding, and more forgiving".

Your biggest and most outstanding weakness is your social ineptitude, biased nature, not thinking (or bothering to check your facts) before shooting off your big mouth, and the worst of these is that you're just. PLAIN. STUBBORN.

I say this from personal experience from working with you. If you want honesty and frankness that much, here's my two cents worth. Honesty and frankness are what friends are for, after all, aren't they?

It's none of my business whether or not you decide to change or just stay the way you are and accept everyone to accept you. But what you *should* understand is that we all have to make compromises. No one's alone in the world and not everyone can do and say anything and everything that they want.

I expect you may know who I am. You may even have come to expect this level of blatant frankness from me.

But I won't leave my name here. The reason? If word of this little falling out between you and "her" gets around even more, I don't want the juniors to see how deep the rifts in our circle of friends really are.

Alvin said...

I think I know who you are...

And of course after working for a certain period of time with me...you are justified in making your comments...

I will only say this: I admit that I am not perfect, and you are right in saying that I can be stubborn, but I want to ask you back a question: Who is perfect?

No one is, but I can tell everyone who wants to know that I do things with the one ultimate goal of helping the big picture, never for myself. Perhaps that's because when some people I perceive do not do things in the way I hope they should be doing make me very pissed.

But still, I appreciate your frank comments and I will do my best to change it.

Well, at least I am not as stubborn as to not accept whatever you are saying now...

But while being stubborn is a fault, does it mean that I am guilty of EVERYTHING?

I know for myself I commit to something 110%, no questions asked, and because I believe in the passion of doing it. I am always ok with people being frank because I do not want anyone to have any side grudges of anything against me. If they have something to say against me, tell me straight in the face. Then I know that the problem is serious. Otherwise I will never know how bad it can be.

Whoever you may be, I sincerely thank you for the advice that you give me. I promise you I will be working on this part of my character that I am trying very hard to change...